Yeah, so I spent 3 hours chatting with Dex today (no, not the tussin)... After digging through the mire that is my social anxiety and other random emotional barriers I ended up making the sort of confession that I once said I'd never make again... and believe it or not it was reciprocated :) . After going a couple years without ever feeling like this about anyone I've been sort of taken aback by all of it, but it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out why things have progressed the way they have; the girl is absolutely fucking amazing. No other way to put it. Before I delve into premature mushiness I'm going to cut this short by saying that if I can make this work for any amount of time it will make up for the 3 years that I forced myself to settle for less. I can only pray that the stars are in my favor.
Wish me luck.
<3. Ian

So, yeah, It's been a while since I posted anything on here, so how's about a quick update. I'm back in Portland, OR. Definately one of my favorite cities, despite all that's happened here. For all intents and purposes I'm back in the same position I was in before I left hear the last time, which is neither good nor bad really. Just plugging away, trying to make a life for myself. I supposedly have a job waiting for me as soon as I can get a copy of my birth certificate mailed up here... since certain people who were supposed to be holding on to my previous copy for safe keeping when I left south carolina have mysteriously "lost" it. *shrug* whatever. A bit of a setback considering I don't have two pennies to rub together to cover the notary signature and finding fee... trying to figure something out. Dexter, the chick I'd met via craigslist before I left here last came over for the first time since I'd been back. Was nice to see a kindred spirit again, hoping that this leads to something.... not really sure though at this point. It's odd knowing that Sarah may be somewhere within the city limits, as I'd gotten used to the 3,000 mi buffer zone I had when living on the east coast... What implications that may have if any will be interesting to witness as the days go by. I dunno. I'm scatterbrained from trying to figure out what to do with myself. Maybe I need a new hobby.
Eh.
-The one and only.
Ian

Current Mood: apathetic

Been running the streets of Atlanta for about a week now planning my next course of action, which looks like it's going to be a return to Portland within the next couple of days. I couldn't be closer to ecstatic about this, as living down south (and for a time, up northeast) has been nothing but bullshit and setbacks. I'm throwing in the towel as far as this traveling crap is concerned, I've seen more than enough of this damned country over the last four years and still nothing compares to the hyperliberalized goodness of the ol' west coast. That and I'm tired of stepping on chicken bones. Downtown Atlanta is literally littered from one end to andother with the remnants of the skeletal systems of our fine (and apparently tasty) feathered friends. It's like a damned Fowlcaust or something. It is true, ladies and gentlemen, that southerners loooooove their chicken. I've even gotten used to eating the stuff, which I've never really been fond of until now. One day when I'm rich I'm gonna open a KFC in the middle of downtown ATL, and become a hell of a lot richer.. lol. Anyways, I'm set to leave soon, should be back in P-Town sometime this week, where I'm going to have a place to live (thank goddess for small miracles), and soon a job (where I'm going to be paid to annoy people... telemarketing isn't that bad considering the fringe benefits)
and das zyklus des fortsetzen :P (the cycle continues, for those of you not in the wurst-munching crowd)

Keep it real, gangstas.
-i(A)n

Current Mood: tired

In an article about the latest school shooting:

Coon, who was white, stood out in the predominantly black school for dressing in a goth style, wearing a black trench coat, black boots, a dog collar and chains, she said.

ugh.

Ok, so I've got a place to live for the time being. I'm basically doing housekeeping and other such things (read: domestic bitch) in exchange for a room... If nothing else it'll give me a chance to get state ID (finally found a solution to that problem) and find some crappy foodservice job somewhere.
Still fighting depression and the feelings of isolation that come from moving around so much but if all goes well in the coming weeks then that should get better as well. Anyways, I'm tired, so it's off to bed for me.

Mata ne.
-i(A)n

So yeah, that's pretty much how things stand right now. I posted an ad on craigslist for a room for a month at $200 just to see if I'd get any responses and have already gotten a few offers. So I guess my goal for now is to come up with a way to generate said funds without resorting to robbery, drug trafficking or professional pavement pacing (lmao.) I found a place here in Greenville that will be able to help me get my ID back, so it looks like that year long friggin nightmare may be coming to an end shortly... I just wish I'd known about this months ago when I still had a place to live down here, but finding out anything related to social services in this region of the country is like pulling teeth... what help there is is few and far between and apparently most organizations don't have much of an advertising budget :P So that's one bright spot in a fairly dark situation. Should be getting that taken care of tomorrow or monday, I still have yet to find out what this place's hours are.
I did want to take the time to thank Scott from t4p and Jae from Baltimore craigslist for helping me out with bus fare (and in the case of Jae some survival cash as well) throughout this transition. I'd be in a much less favorable position without these guys. So yeah, major kudos brothers, your generosity didn't go unappreciated :)
anyways, time on the comp is up so i'm off for now.
-i(A)n

oh, yeah. if you've got nothing to lose, punch a cop today. some sort of retaliation seems appropriate.
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http://news.aol.com/story/_a/accounts-differ-in-mothers-airport-death/20071004094809990001?ncid=NWS00010000000001

Well, after a a few major changes of plans (or what I've come to call my lifestyle ADD) I've found myself back in Greenville, SC for the time being. Currently without lodging, had an offer from craigslist but the place ended up being 1 1/2 hrs away from Greenville out in the middle of nowhere, which doesn't suit my needs especially considering that I don't drive. So it's back to the drawing board on that front. Depression has been keeping me fairly sedate and introverted which isn't a good thing when one is wandering the streets. Spent most of last night reflecting on the fact that next month it will be an entire year since I've seen Sophia or had contact with Sarah (half of that is a good thing, the other half is agonizingly painful). Trying to stay positive about life in general, or at least enough to keep me from giving in to the urge to go on week long tussin binges.
Bah, time's running out on the comp.
Wish...Me... ah, fuck, it never works anyways.
-i(A)n

Namaste, good people of cyberland.
It looks like I'll be heading out to Fresno, CA at 9pm tonight. I really really really love craigslist :P Going to meet up with a friend out there and hopefully put things back together. Relations got really strained with the people I was staying with in Delaware so I chose to leave, had a thing going in Baltimore, which fell through, and now I'm going back to CA, which I should have done a long time ago but I had to wait and see if I could work something out out here first. Things are looking up, apparently I've amassed a load of good karma recently as things could have gone a lot worse than they have. I'm looking forward to being back in my home region after being gone for so long. And now I'm hungry, so I'll leave it at that.
Love, Light, and (A)
-i(A)n

Got to baltimore, ended up on streets because craigslist housing siuation fell through. Ended up with bacterial conjunctivitis and corneal abrasions along the way, have been in and out of the hospital milking them for their percocet sample packs and using dxm for pain when wears off. have healed somewhat and am starting to sober up after the 5 days of self administered anaestehesia. have a few leads. wish me luck. comment if you read this.